It looks indulgent, and if that’s what living is, then yes, it is indulgent.
It is also a necessary part of treatment for my FND.
This therapy is a big part of the healing that is happening in my life right now. Healing that has come because I didn’t quit.
This one appointment was a half hour of allowing someone else into my personal space, trusting them to touch my body, my feet. It was taking time to do the 5 Points Grounding exercise with my best girl.
It ended with laughter and good memories. Most importantly, it began a healing in a part of me that someone damaged a long time ago.
So if this looks indulgent, if you think I’m spoiled, maybe I am. I’ve got people who think I am worthy of loving, being cared for, and having therapies that actually work for my disorders.
I am so grateful.
Thank you to my husband who has been by my side every step of the way. He has pushed, pulled, and sometimes carried me to and through each step. He has been my cheerleader and has stood silently as I worked through. He has driven me to every appointment, every meeting, and all the “little” errands on the way. He has lifted me courage and laughter and physical safety with tenderness too. I am so blessed to have a partner, leader, and best friend who never gives up!
Thanks also to my children who have watched me during times when I have been helpless and times when I’ve been frustrated while trying. They have been patient when I asked them to repeat themselves for the 7,629th time, helped me remember the correct words when I can’t find them, walked slowly behind me, held my hand and walked beside me, and helped with every chore and job I haven’t been able to do. They laughed with me and taught me so many valuable lessons about love and resilience.
To my FND team at TRP in Michigan… thank you for going above and beyond in your education, for bringing all the tools to one place. Thank you for speaking the language and affirming everything I’ve been sensing. Thank you for holding my hand, gently encouraging, and being the voice that cheered me on so many moments. Thank you for following up, checking in, and never leaving me stuck. I am still healing because you taught me everything I needed to know. Thank you for teaching me that I CAN and that healing is an inside job.
To Dr. Gil, thank you for telling me the truth and doing so in a way that made sense. Thank you for sending me to treatment that works and is real. Thank you for giving me a quality of life I would never have dreamed possible. Thank you for listening and seeing and guiding.
God has been good to me. All this time. I am so very blessed!
Momma Rich's 