Catch & Release Part 3

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Amy Sara
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Stuff that makes me mad right now:

  • 1 Visitor per patient per day.
  • Permission required to attend a medical appointment with a spouse.
  • “I’m sorry” or “I’m sorry for your loss”. I wanted to kick myself when I said it.
  • Not knowing how deeply or when or what will happen to cause me to be sucked under by another wave.
  • Having to say “thank you” to people who really don’t care, and want to be a voyeur during a really bad time in my life.
  • Trying to say something and not being able to find the words.
  • Having to say, “David passed away.” Over and over and over again when doing business.
  • That I said the wrong wedding date in the eulogy.
  • Not seeing my dad in his chair when I walk into the living room.
  • How quiet it is. Seriously. I kind of miss the TV at 100dB.
  • Life just keeps on going, even though parts of my world have been frozen.
  • Nobody picking on me or my kids.
  • People who are in the medical profession who do not shoot straight.
  • Doctors who think they’re God for that matter. You don’t know if a person will live or die, so stop telling people they will recover.
  • Stuffing it all down so I can get through this minute.
  • Poor communication in hospitals and their lack of communication when coordinating with outside services.
  • Being told one thing today and another thing tomorrow because it’s a different person doing the talking. The position should have a prepared statement or policy at all times for all things.
  • When a place has to stop one thing to start another. Like seriously, they did everything together. You mean you can’t just backspace over his name and type hers in?
  • Having to make decisions and then making them and then finding out the decision wasn’t honored and the hospital just did what they wanted without permission. (See item )
  • Not being able to trust people because they’ve shown me who they are; yet I have no choice because they have my dad as a prisoner er, patient in their hospital.
  • Video monitors that are removed before the patient is.
  • Nobody out piddling on a boat.
  • When the people who do the work don’t get the respect they deserve.
  • When someone’s file doesn’t get read and problems aren’t addressed immediately when found.
  • Having to fight daily for a reasonable quailty of life.
  • There has got to be a better way of changing positions, there just has got to be a better way!
  • Knowing that I knew, but didn’t want to believe so now here I am sitting in a funk caused by a reality I foretold.
  • Forgetting important people in the obiturary.
  • The pressure.
  • The lack of boundaries or respect of boundaries that some people exhibit.
  • People who ask, “How’d he die?” or “What happened?” or “Was he sick long?”
  • Being unable to ask my dad for the advice I need.
  • Seriously, can we make some extra heavy-duty chux?
  • Having to think about what I’m saying because I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings.
  • Caring about others feelings.
  • Not knowing how long I’m going to have to process this.
  • When people I love are hurting and i can’t help them.
  • Unsolicitied advice. Especially when given in a patronizing tone.
  • The unknown.