Weak End

As I was on the couch, being sickly Friday, some things were mulling around in my brain.  Some of which I didn’t need to worry about, some of which I did.  And as I thought, and thought, I became more and more sick, and my stomach churned until I finally succumbed to sleep.  And when I woke up, and checked my phone, I realized my Aunt had posted an invitation to my Facebook wall.  An invitation to a Saturday Morning Bible Study.  Initially, I thought this was probably a fluke, as I hadn’t seen much activity from her on Facebook.  But I confirmed that she had posted that invite to my wall on purpose, and yes, she did want me to be there.  And I did something I haven’t done in a while… I allowed myself permission to do something for myself.  Alone.  With no kids.  For no one else’s benefit except my own.  Okay, well, we all know that anything that benefits the wife and mother benefits the remainder of the family.  But this study wasn’t to serve a professional function.  It is just for me to go and have some time in fellowship, studying the Word of God.
And so, Saturday morning, I woke up at normal workday time, and made my pot of coffee, followed my regular normal weekday routine, and then spent a little time just visiting with Beef.  I’d forgotten what it’s like to get up early with him, and have time to just visit.
My Auntie N picked me up for Bible Study, and to my surprise, one of my cousins came too.  I was happy to see her, as we spent many a night, and weekend together as children.  She’s one of my faves!  After Bible Study, we all went and delivered Girl Scout Cookies and visited with Beef’s cousin, another one of my favorite people.  We came home and waited for yet another of my cousins to stop by for Girl Scout Cookies, and after she did, we all settled down for a nap.  After waking up, I grabbed my Bible and studied Ezekiel, a book that I flipped open to in class that morning.  About half way through the book, I realized that God was showing me what I needed to see.  And I smiled, thinking that God had been waiting for me to break down, to have to stop what I was doing and be still (having to stay home from work on Friday), so that He could get ahold of me.  And drawing me near to Him again, He is showing me all that I need to see.  So, after such a wonderful Bible Study, and sweet day with my family, I decided that we were finally going to bite the bullet and go to the church here in town.  I had been putting it off for the past year (literally).   This is the time, I thought to myself.  And so, this morning, we got up and got ready, and headed to church.  The kids were pretty good, all things considered.  And we made it.  After church, I shoveled the driveway, scooped my Aunt’s driveway and then we worked on the Kitchen floor.  Beef heated up and removed the old linoleum tiles and I scraped the glue away as best I could with a razor.  After a few hours (we were about half way done with the project), Nanny (my mom) came over for a perm.  When I finished that, I went back to razor/floor scraping, and also cooked supper.  I am exhausted.  In fact, my eyes are doing touch-and-gos right now.  But I feel satisfied that I got some good work done!

The point to all this is that, I could do none of those activities, or the ones I have scheduled for tomorrow without the loving hand of God in my life.  He gave me healing on Friday for my body and mind.  He brought healing to my spirit on Saturday and Sunday, and He will take care of all my needs tomorrow.  Because when I am weak, then He is strong.  And so, instead of being happy for the weekend, I am happy for the weak end!  I’ve decided that God calls me back because He sees me, He knows me, and He can tell when I’m weak and need to tap into His power supply.  Thank goodness for that, because I sure don’t pay that good of attention!