It's A…

Well, we aren’t 100% sure, but we are pretty sure it’s a girl! So much for the Samuel prayer, however, like Hannah, “For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition which I asked of Him. Therefore I have lent (her) to the LORD; as long as (she) lives (she) shall be lent to the LORD.”
i prayed for a son, and maybe someday that will happen, i know it is a possiblity, because ALL things are possible with God. NOTHING is impossible for GOD.
i have to tell you that if you don’t believe, keep on searching. If your request hasn’t been granted, keep on asking. God is listening. He hears you. He knows your heart, He knows what you want. There is NONE like Him. i don’t want to sound preachy, but even as i type this, i am moved to tell you that NOTHING is impossible.
Three weeks before we got pregnant, we watched a movie called, “Facing The Giants”. i wanted to watch it because it is a faith-filled movie, but i knew Beef would watch it with me because it was based around a football team. Let me tell you, it was powerful… and while i believed the message, i wondered if it was God’s will for me to be a mother. There’s no question now! i have two favorite quotes from the movie, one is when the lead character makes a decision that goes against all logic, all reason, and when he is questioned by another character, he answers, “I’m preparing for rain”. Just typing that brings tears to my eyes. If you want rain, you have to prepare for it, you have to believe for it, you have to EXPECT it.
The second favorite quote is near the end, and it is simple, the lead character is reiterating the mission of the entire team, when he asks, “What is impossible for GOD?” Later, he is asked the same question, and is overwhelmed by what he finds out that God has done for him. (WAYYYYY more than he ever imagined)
Sometimes it is hard to prepare for rain. It must have been a struggle for Noah to keep going out to that dry ground every day and hammering away on that ark, which no one believed would EVER float. It must have killed Rachel to see her sister get pregnant time after time, and yet her womb remained empty. And if you don’t relate to Bible people, maybe you can relate to me: 13 years we prayed, we struggled, we went to doctors, we believed, we had faith, we wondered, we cried, we had others pray for us, we went through some pretty rough stuff. 13 years we wondered if God would grant us just this one wish, this one dream we had, this desire in our hearts to hold a baby of our own. We stood in faith, we did what we were supposed to do, and still…. silence. i have to tell you that when we lived in Maryland, i even got mad with God. i couldn’t understand why He would allow me to go through such pain and heartache if there would be no reward. i felt He was asking me to do something i could not do, bear a burden i could not bear. And i had others tell me that it would happen, i knew it would happen in His time and if it was His will… but i wasn’t sure if it WAS His will. That’s a hard struggle. It stinks some days… it’s easier other days… but 13 years is a LONG time to wait, a LONG time to wonder. i prepared for rain, and the rain didn’t come for a while…
When i finally put myself aside and said, i’ve tried everything i can think of… when i let others pray and just moved forward…
IT RAINED!!!

i always said that if i had a daughter, i would name her Cana; because that was the land where Jesus performed His first miracle, and for me to even get pregnant would take nothing less than a miracle. We won’t be naming her Cana, because even the most wonderful thing requires compromise. But her name will be a nod from us to God, acknowledging His provision. He answers. He gives. Even when we don’t deserve it, even when we’re out of faith, even if we doubt. He still remains, and He NEVER forgets. He is faithful beyond our imagination. God is so good, there are no words!
Whatever her name, i will always thank God for hearing our prayers, and answering.
i will always thank God for sending people to pray for us, to have faith with us, to wrestle for us in prayer, in faith and in deed.
God is Good. ALL the time.