Why CornFed?

*This post is from November of 2007, when I used the pseudonym “Cornfed Mama”, and wrote on a blog with the same URL. It has retired and now; I am just The Real Amy Sara. Also, I used to refuse to capitalize my “I”s to signify that I was not important. Now, I wish I hadn’t because correcting them will be a big pain. But correct them I will. Eventually.

The online dictionary at dictionary.com describes “cornfed” as:
-adjective
1. fed on corn: cornfed cattle
2. having a well-fed, healthy, and guileless appearance: the open enthusiasm of these handsome, cornfed youngsters

My whole life, i was the epitome of #2. Healthy, full of life, loved to eat, transparent and completely oblivious to the big bad world that surrounded our little town of three hundred.
I pretty much came to hate this life as a teenager. Small town = big gossip, and i never was one to enjoy such petty behavior. Sadly, if you don’t participate, you don’t fit in, and if you don’t fit in, you might as well get out.

So i got married and left. i could not wait to go to the big city where things were different.
What i learned was that while things were different, they were also the same. There was still gossip, and cliques and mean people. But there was also crime and insensitivity and while i enjoyed some anonymity, i discovered that i didn’t really want to be a little fish in a big ocean!

Being CornFed is my way of honoring the simple things in life, the simplicity of living in a small community, and the joy of being transparent.

After moving back here to my home state, i do still miss some things about my former life. One of them being the “southern-ness”. So, i chose to use the “Mama” spelling to honor those women who were my “Southern Mothers” and helped foster change and growth in my life while i was away from my own mom.

On my way, i have learned many things, which i hope you will read about in this blog.
The most important lesson that i have learned so far?